What a day.

So today started really well! (Ended weird), but started good.

I woke up before my alarm (that NEVER happens), and then headed to bible study. One of my most FAVORITE bible teacher ever, and good friend was sharing on her latest mission month in China. Her time sharing was an incredible ending to the Gideon study we had been in during the last several weeks. We learned that in our weaknesses God has the chance to show HIS strength.  It has been such a great study and you would think after a morning with GREAT wisdom I would have been pumped for the rest of the day but that was really not the case.

I left bible study feeling great (who would't),  and then called J on my way to the house to see if he wanted me to pick him up or not so we could head to our meeting with DHS. Soon after I hung up the phone I started feeling SUPER stressed and full of anxiety. It literally hit me like a ton of bricks.  It was so  strange. I couldn't really even wrap my mind around why I was feeling so anxious, after all, I was really excited to gather more information on a process that still felt so unknown (and frankly still does).
So I did what any good christian wife would do in that situation........ I started a fight with my husband. What about you might ask? I HAVE NO IDEA. I don't even remember now (It was that important).

ANYWAY, we get there. I have tears in my eyes? WHY? still not really sure? As I started to touch up my makeup so I wouldn't look like a psycho, we walked inside and waited for our guy to come and greet us. I started to feel normal again. Why? I still don't know. Think I am weird? Thats ok, My husband would totally agree.

Well.... we sit down and he literally gives me NO time for small talk. I at least wanted to talk about the weather or the Sooners/Orange Pride or SOMETHING so he could see how awesome we were but we were going to go straight into it. Somehow I suppose I was feeling like maybe motherhood would be directly related to witty chit-chat...umm, yeah.

OHHHH!!! let me just tell you what Jeremiah decided to wear! THE MOST WRINKLY PANTS YOU HAVE EVER SEEN. He didn't even bother to shave (for the last 2 weeks) and a Hoodie. (Rolling my eyes as we speak).  Did I mention my husband also has DREADLOCKS. He screamed responsibility.

Ok, back to the meeting. So he started asking us who/what we were willing to adopt. It felt VERY VERY strange. We kinda just stumbled over our answers. We both weren't even answering the same, (way to show unity to the stranger) until Jeremiah spoke up with a very boisterous "We really are open".  lol.

The guy went over a ton of details and he answered every one of my 2 pages of questions that I had prepared prior. He was really great and handled me like a pro (I can be a little extreme when it comes to gathering info).  He handed me the famous manilla envelope with a tall stack of questions about every aspect of our current/past life inside.  We have 20 days to return the envelope (filled out of course) or our file will be returned.

the stack.

20 days seems fair although Jeremiah seems to think I can do it in a couple days. what? At one point I ACCIDENTALLY said WE when speaking about the packet and then I QUICKLY returned with. "I will do my best".

Driving back to the coffeehouse I started feeling super weird again. I had to handle a Bank Error over the phone and started crying. oh my.  Let me just end with this... I AM NOT A CRYER SO THIS WAS SUCH A WEIRD DAY.

Now I am home, left the coffeehouse early and came home and hung out with my husband. If I had to sum up the day I would call it successful, just be thankful you didn't have to hang out with me today :)

Tomorrow is a new day. Right?

Love you all.

-S